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3) Should I start focusing more on my academic life and worrying about my future, such as what I want to be and what college I want to go to...
You should then imagine putting your weener in a meat grinder...
After following these steps you should now realise how stupid you are, and should then feel a new energy awaken within you inwhich will help you do something useful in life...
If this doesnt work try it again...it should work eventually.
I’m not too sure what you are trying to prove to yourself with your posts ,why did you join such a message board ?, may be, you are expressing some frustration due to failure in developing psychic abilities ?
You remind me of the case of Dr. Schlitz and Dr. Wiseman, dr. Schlitz did some experiments in
remote viewing and wrote about it, with scepticism Dr. Richard Wiseman read the experiment results and tried to reproduce them in his lab unfortunately , he did not work for him, so he concluded that remote viewing is mumbo-jumbo (even thought that it is now in the public knowledge that US intelligence used a group of remote viewers for many years until the end of the cold war, check out info about the Stargate project)
Finally, Dr.Schiltz decided to work with Dr. Wiseman, so Schiltz will have a chance to prove the reality of ESP to Wiseman, they did experiments ,16 sessions some under the supervision of Wiseman and other under the supervision of Schiltz , in both cases, same lab, same conditions, same protocol, ALL experiments by Dr. Wiseman failed those by Dr. Schiltz succeeded, it was later determined that the only difference between the two scientists is that Dr. Schiltz believed that remote perception was possible, Dr. Wiseman did not.
This is I believe the root of your inability to develop ESP. Even Sony Corp. was able to prove the reality of remote perception and other psychic phenomena however, they could not figured out a way to make bucks out of it, so they officially closed their lab.
PS/ you can read about Dr.Wiseman / Schiltz experiement in the Journal of parapsychology (vol 61.n 3. sept 1997)
PPS/ fun reading ! Psychic helps US army to locate Saddam Hussein
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20061106/od_uk_nm/oukoe_uk_iraq_saddam_geller