Awakening the heart center:Not feeling the Love

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When I started to awaken my heart center I couldn’t feel the love but I noticed that the more I worked with my heart center the more anger I will express in my daily life, in my case it was not big anger at the world , society or people, it was an almost invisible type of anger, I was more and more angry at the small things, for example not receive replies to my emails, the small stuffs. I figured out that may be if I cannot feel the love it is because my base feeling is made of anger and its friend frustation, can I feel love if I have more anger ?



So I meditated on my heart center and this anger in me, it was a deep seeded anger, I told to myself that I want to communicate with this part of myself that is the origin of my anger, then in my mind I perceived a little child about 6 or 7 years he was full anger and fears, he was kicking me with all his strength and being. I said to myself that’s my inner child I accept my inner child unconditionally , because my inner child represent the part of myself that I reject. I asked my inner child to show me the origin of the anger I saw a flash of many things but one thing I got it is that some of my anger is linked with my father abandoning my mother during the pregnancy , some of my anger is linked to past life, in fact I got too much information in that flash and I was under heavy emotions, so what I did is that I sent love to my past and to my inner child, I kept saying ‘I accept my inner child unconditionally’. At some point I could feel the love that I so wanted to feel it was mixed with anger, later the source of the anger revealed itself it was self-hatred, there I exploded in tears.



Many healers will tell you that most of their clients have some level of self-hatred, I think that it goes for most of the population. Now, when you awaken your heart center sooner or later you will have to face your own drama or issues liked to your heart center, there is a reason why your heart center is not fully open at this very moment. May be, you do not have anger like me, may be it is something else , I do not know It is for you to find out.

[lin kuei]

That's kinda what happen to me when I first started doing love meditation. A lot of hatred and anger was release - I thought I must be a bad person or that I'm doing something wrong etc. This went on for quite a while.

I told a reiki master about my experiences and she said that the anger and hatred I was feeling was a good sign. It meant that also those negativity was being released (I was being purged). I kept on doing the love meditation and sure enough I felt the love....Just keep at it...

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Lin, you mentioned on my blog that you had quite brutal past life as I had one too,as a black magic master in ancient China, it is funny the contrast with the incarnation I have now, in a sense it is almost the opposite. But then a pattern remains the teaching psychic abilities to others, that a pattern in both lives.

Do you still have some patterns of the past life you mentioned ?

[lin kuei]

I do see a pattern of self-mastery, seeking truth and knowledge, and martial arts....I don't see my past life as a constrast in my current life, if anything I remained the same and the world changed....

[IrnBru]

After reading a couple of Klaus Joehle books, I have finally realised the importance of the "heart" and how everything ties into it. The power of Reiki/healing energy makes much more sense, now.

What methods would you suggest to become more heart centred?
Even though I have tried numerous "spiritual" stuff, I have never really experienced anything "happening" inside. Hypnosis CDs, guided meditations, etc. have not done anythig for me either. I suppose that I have a limited concentration span and imagination

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There I relate 7 months long of meditation , using Klaus idea http://www.louisyagera.com/2007/02/21/7-months-of-love-meditation/
May be, you can find some foods for your thoughts.

[IrnBru]

RE: Klaus Joehle's MP3 about opening the flow of love

I have been using this MP3 for a couple of weeks, now.  The way  am "using it" is that when I am directed to a specific area or chakra, I feel/imagine the ventilation of the breathe going through there, as if I was breathing through that body part of chakra.
Q:  Do you think that I am on the right track practicing like that?

Practicing in the above manner, I can very easily feel a "flow" in the Throat and Third-eye Chakras, but it is much mroe difficult to feel anything in the other chakras.
Q:  is it just a matter of perservering to finally become more sensitive and aware of the other centres?

The other day (and just for that ONE day) I did notice something weird.  Shop attendants seemed drawn to me, when I was at the shops  They deliberately went out of their way to move closer to me, and just looked at me as if there was something to be seen.  This might not be so unusual elsewhere, but in the UK, this does not really happen to me, nor anyone else much.  As I cycled home, some kids just stopped in their tracks, turned towards me and just "beamed" at me.

But, that has not happened since.  Maybe it was just a one-off....just so as to give me some motivation to continue practicing.   I am also experiencing a lot of anger, but I always have.  Also, a lot ofdespair, on seeing the world and all the "crap" that goes on.  Even though I might be able to slowly change myself and become a happier, more positive person, the world around me is still full of hateful people

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RE: Klaus Joehle's MP3 about opening the flow of love

I have been using this MP3 for a couple of weeks, now.  The way  am "using it" is that when I am directed to a specific area or chakra, I feel/imagine the ventilation of the breathe going through there, as if I was breathing through that body part of chakra.
Q:  Do you think that I am on the right track practicing like that?

Yes, do that , this is what I do , this an effective method

Practicing in the above manner, I can very easily feel a "flow" in the Throat and Third-eye Chakras, but it is much mroe difficult to feel anything in the other chakras.
Q:  is it just a matter of perservering to finally become more sensitive and aware of the other centres?

Yes.

The other day (and just for that ONE day) I did notice something weird.  Shop attendants seemed drawn to me, when I was at the shops  They deliberately went out of their way to move closer to me, and just looked at me as if there was something to be seen.  This might not be so unusual elsewhere, but in the UK, this does not really happen to me, nor anyone else much.  As I cycled home, some kids just stopped in their tracks, turned towards me and just "beamed" at me.

But, that has not happened since.  Maybe it was just a one-off....just so as to give me some motivation to continue practicing.

Your experience seem similar to mine, I got the same things during the first few months.
Read http://www.louisyagera.com/2007/02/21/7-months-of-love-meditation/
Now, I m getting other type of experiences as I changed the way I do the meditation.
 

I am also experiencing a lot of anger, but I always have.  Also, a lot ofdespair, on seeing the world and all the "crap" that goes on.  Even though I might be able to slowly change myself and become a happier, more positive person, the world around me is still full of hateful people

I also had to deal with anger, it is better to stay away from News and stuffs;)....even watching the Premierleague will make you angry;) if you do...so take some holiday of any type of News.

[lin kuei]

What methods would you suggest to become more heart centred?
Even though I have tried numerous "spiritual" stuff, I have never really experienced anything "happening" inside. Hypnosis CDs, guided meditations, etc. have not done anythig for me either. I suppose that I have a limited concentration span and imagination

Those are things that will help you to do, but it is not doing. There's the Star Wars quote "do not try...do!"...start with DOing acts of good deeds like holding the door open for a woman...telling people how much you care about them and what they mean to you...etc...Also, have patience - it's a virtue ....

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What methods would you suggest to become more heart centred?
Even though I have tried numerous "spiritual" stuff, I have never really experienced anything "happening" inside. Hypnosis CDs, guided meditations, etc. have not done anythig for me either. I suppose that I have a limited concentration span and imagination

Those are things that will help you to do, but it is not doing. There's the Star Wars quote "do not try...do!"...start with DOing acts of good deeds like holding the door open for a woman...telling people how much you care about them and what they mean to you...etc...Also, have patience - it's a virtue ....

Agreed! this seems to count more than meditation;)

[lin kuei]

An article by Joey Plazo that I feel related:
http://www.xtrememind.com/blog/189/giving-the-secret-of-true-happiness/#more-189

[IrnBru]

"do not try...do!"

Yes!! the idea is so simple that I missed it completely!!!