Well, Rick, I think that's all the effect of the "shit hitting the fan". A few months ago I started to meditate daily on cleaning and balancing my chakras, and for a while everything went swell. And then, out of the blue, I started to feel horrible, to have suicidal thoughts and a complete mess. I freaked out, I interrupted meditations, and got better after about 2 weeks, just to have the same pattern again after a few more months. Then I was told that it was all the effect of all the "garbage" stuck in the chakras, and which got out in the open after I started to meditate to clean them. So I stopped looking back and went forward with the conscience that, if I get blue again, it will pass