Be your own guru

[Tortue]

It is very simple to become your own guru, you have to observe the things that are happening to you, each day observe the reality you create for yourself.

You do create your reality every minutes, there is no event in your life that was created by someone else. Some people got into psychic attack then they claim , yeah, I was attacked by that one, I have demons after me.

You know, they created that to themselves, they just don’t want to assume the responsibility of the creating. A belief in protection is precisely what attract bad condition such as an attack. Most people buy their belief system from the Mass Consciousness (MC) and what the Mass Consciousness (MC) says cars are unsafe , they are risk of accident so people hypnotize themselves into that and they got car accidents. The MC says that food is bad that one is better, that sort of lifestyle is fine for one, this one is not. You get all sort of garbage from the MC , turn up the speaker of your radio , switch on your TV and may be a few mainstream magazines and you will be able to observe the MC belief system.

Now, they are mass events, events created ‘en masse’ at very large scale, if enough inhabitants of a country hold a belief in terror for example, then they will manifest a terror event on their soil so they could see their own belief externalised.

What rules to follow ? Follows no rules but your heart, if you want to pursue a new career, learning or whatever, do not referrer to what the MC think of that or what your parents and friends, connect with your heart and feel how it is , if it feels right then go for it.

You start to become the YOU that you truly are when you follow your heart, not this monstrosity called the Mass Consciousness.

[Free Soul]

Hey Tortue, another very fine post! *btw. you need a thumbs up smilie  *

I've been thinking about one thing lately...You know there are rumors (some more serious than others) about mind control programms of the cia...So, this is also a thing, that we attract into our life.
I could live with that..but there's a problem:
This is the only thing, that truly takes away your power...Once you lost the power over your thoughts, you lost everything.

What's your take on this? Is this danger real?

[Tortue]

Well, a fairly large portion of the population has a belief in powerlessness. Powerlessness has many source but one of the most important source of powerlessness among human is the feeling that life is meaningless, that we are just biological unit and when we die this is over, with such belief it is easy to become powerless , if life has no meaning and you are just a bio-unit eating, sleeping and working then you are more likely to feel insecure sooner or later.
For some people when they are taken by powerlessness they turn to cults, through the framework of the cults, they seek something higher and meaningful, often times it never work due to fear and the deep powerlessness often such project end up in mass suicide.

Most people with powerlessness in them don’t turn to cult however they will give away their personal power on form or another, from attracting bad luck, being killed in a Hurricane to being taken in a mind control experiment program.

[Free Soul]

OK, so your tip is "business as usual"    ??
Cleansing Chakras, reclaiming your power and staying positve 

[Tortue]

yep cleansing chakras , make conscious choices , observe the things that is happening to you , stop blaming circumstances and people.

[Rick]

make conscious choices

Often times my mind/ego stops me from doing what I want to do. When I try to stop it, it just becomes louder. When I try to accept it, I know that I just try to make it disappear and it doesn't.
My question is, can you tell something about how to go for what I want. Maybe something that helped you to overcome such a challenge.

[Tortue]

Hi Rick,

Can you give me a specific example of your situation, if this is not too personal ?

[Rick]

Hi Rick,

Can you give me a specific example of your situation, if this is not too personal ?

sure.
For example I want to talk to guys that I don't know well (event that occured yesterday: I was new in a gorup, everybody was engaged in a conversation or doing something. Instead of joining them i stood apart. And damn i was curious about what one of them did) or a girl I want to approach. Then this whole dialogue starts in my head. What if this happens, what if they think bad about me, if I annoy them. I excuse myself and feel bad afterwards. A lot of times I also feel some warm energy that makes me tired.
This warm feeling appears also if my mind tells me it will be a lot of work etc. .

On some days my mind is just clear and I head for what I want without hesitation. But if my ego doesn't got reinforcement for a while, it starts to doubt my skills.

I try to clear my mind with this exercises:
I meditate one hour a day (first chakras opened pretty well), practice Qi Gong since a week now, and use for example the ideagasms mp3 to overcome fear based emotions.
Maybe it's just like my Qi Gong teacher said, that you have to gain energy first before results appear and I should be more patient. :/

[Tortue]

Well, this is the worst case scenario , you convince yourself of your own bullshit !
I have been there more than once, what worked for me, was to push myself , sure you will have some cry, tears, it may hurt but then so what ?

If you want to change your state of being, you have to do it gradually it is like taking an elevator, even if some of us can do it instantly like they have a revelation for the most of us, it will be like taking the elevator or taking a trip , to one state to another one.

If your state of being is fearful and scared and you want to be confident and happy, then you have to take the trip and it may or may not be a painful journey, for example it will be like taking a walk from Niagara Falls to New York City, at first you will walk a few miles , you will be fine and amazed by the scenery , the fox run vineyards, the finger lakes and so on. But then as the day go on you feel some tiredness , some hunger and pain in your foot , you may consider to go back to the starting point.
Your mind you will tell you to be reasonable , it is still time to go back and have a meal and a nice night at home , you are determined and you decide to continue the trip a few miles later you reach the city of Watkins Glen, there the people are not like you, they are not used to see someone like you in fact, you feel not at ease due to the novelty of the situation, may be, you should find some money to buy a ticket bus and go back. You decide to push yourself and to continue on , then you go from city to city you pass by Binghamton , Downsville by the time you reach Woodstock not too far away from NYC , you are used to the people finally you see some change in you, people look friendlier to you by now, you have evolved a bit yet there is still some insecurity but you are determined you continue on, so you go walk near the Hudson river that go to NYC, you reach Tarrytown one of the last stop but then you are filled with an urge to reconsider all of this, you will ask yourself ‘Do I really want to be in the NYC state of being, may be, I should go back to Niagara falls state of being at least it was familiar, I can handle that’ …more doubts will feel your mind, it is here that most people buy a bus ticket to go back to their starting point. But you have more determination than that so you decide to push no matter what, even if there are some tears and hurts, so what ?


You walk the last few miles and finally you arrive to New York City, you are changed. You are in a new state of being, you look back at the trip with nostalgia, yes it was a painful trip but it was worthy. That the way one move from one state of being to another. Concretely it means to choose what you want to be or experienced and stay there, at first, you will not be able to stay there for more than a second or two, but the more you push the more you can stay in the new state of being and again it comes with a flush out of the old stuffs in you, this can be painful, but then so what ?

[Tortue]

One a more practical side, an exercise you can do is to everyday during one hour feel appreciation for yourself, appreciation and gratitude, start with a smile, then move one on something you like about you , your house whatever, try to keep the feeling and extend it.
At first, it will be difficult to do it for more than a few seconds but with practise , you will move to 1 minutes, 3 minutes etc....
to the point, it becomes your permanent state of being, at that point your thoughts will change, you will be totally confident and you wont have the problems you are experiencing now, however, once you are there, you will still have to practise for awhile because your mind will tend to slip back in the old pattern , during the journey you will have to overcome obstacles and resistances, and may be a few days of depression, thats the flush out process of the old garbages. If you need more instruction check out a book called 'Excuse me your life is waiting' by Lynn Grabhorn, reading the Abraham-Hicks material is also helpful.

[Rick]

Thank you for your help Tortue. This weekend I talked to strangers and approached girls on the street. Even tough I feel my mind tries to hold me back again I will remind myself of your post.

Started to read a book by Abraham-Hicks. It's about how to change the way of thinking in 30days. I will post again after more progress.

[Tortue]

Hi Rick,

I will be happy to hear about your progress, also something you can try
If you have the Karma Clearing mp3 from ideasgams it is to imagine the worst
case scenario when approaching strangers and to work out the fears that surface.
If you can let go of that, it will not matter much to you what people think or do if when
you approach them you screw it up.

[Rick]

Little update. A lot of things has changed since my last post. With the exercises in Abraham Hicks book I got  rid of my approach anxiety and now understand what the meaning of the affirmation "I trust the universe to supply my abundance and prosperity" means.
During the week strangers on the street started talking to me, girls gave me IoI's and other cool things. I wanted to ride my motorcycle but it was raining and then I wrote my intent on a piece of paper and till I dressed up (10min) it stopped and I enjoyed riding it for one hour. As I came home the rain started again.
This weekend I also met up with Free and some other friends. We went sarging and I just stopped girls on the street. Had a lot of fun during the conversations, a number close and so on.
Im just at day 6 of this 30day workbook and every night I go to sleep Im looking forward to the next day.

Another thing that happened is that I feel a pressure in the orange chakra area and also my heart chakra area. If I focus on the chakras the feeling becomes really intense and my hands become hot.

[Tortue]

wow Rick, thats solid progress 
Keep going and let see how you end up at the end of the progam.
As for the hands or palms becoming hot , it happens to me too for the same reason as you,
it is good indication that your heart center is awakening.
Even your newfound interaction with strangers and gals, is good indication of a heart center
awakening

[Rick]

Time for a little update.
I did not finish the 30day program (sth. like one week would have been left to go) and went back to other methods to look for fulfillment. I stopped doing it because after this 3weeks I got some kind of bad feelings and did not find a way out of them. My ego told me it doesn't work and so on. After that I worked a lot with tuning forks and tried to actively go out and change my situation, like walking around with a dildo on my head to get over fear of disapproval.
Even though I did all of this, it was more like feeling one week totally good and then down for two weeks. All based on things that happened to me. I was controlled by events that occured.
As I came back here to read a bit, I reread this thread and ordered  'Excuse me your life is waiting'. The Law of Attraction beccame clearer to me and also the way to take action. (it wasn't clear to me the way it was explained by Abraham. It kind of depressed me that time, to read that you have to feel good and then take action. It drove me crazy because I was thinking about situations when I feared sth. and then pushed through the fear and then I felt great afterwards. It did not make sense to my mind in such cases).
Iam visualizing again and things got better again/ more like I want them to be. I now practice to vibrate on better frequencies and stay there.
Checked my chakras last night and they are all really open in front and back. big circles swinging clockwise.

One thing that happened to me last week is that I approached a girl and we had a really good conversation. At first she was aloof but as I opened up, she did also. Then I met her with a friend of hers and she acted aloof again, disrespectful. Her girlfriend rolled her eyes etc.. I told her the way I see this all and why she is playing games with me. I know, I should have compassion for this but negative feelings about this come up. I also fear how things will develop because we are at the same school and she chats about me and what I talked to her to other girls. (negative vib here  ).
So far...Rick.