TOTAL NOOB. lots of crazy things happening. Need advice

I am apparently a very powerful psychic with no control whatsoever and no understanding or knowledge about such things. It's only been a few years since I acknowledged that I was psychic and not just imagining things and I've never tried to look for information on or develop it until recently.

I can occasionally sense the location, mood, or intention of other people. Sometimes I sense people across a parking lot. I have no control over it though. It just happens sometimes. I seem to have a subconscious awareness of my surroundings. At times it gets stronger(or more conscious) and I can actually use it. Like sometimes I'll "see" an object about to hit me in the back of the head and duck. Other times I'll get hit by that same object and realize that I sensed it coming after the fact. It was just to far down in my subconscious to notice. I used to think I was seeing a few moments into the future but now that I've actually begun to pay attention to it I realize it's true nature.

On the other hand I've experienced a few things that can't be explained that way. Several times I've been sitting at home during a thunderstorm and felt an inexplicable tension come over me. A second or two later lightning strikes. It felt sorta like when you jump in surprised fear when you hear loud thunder, but I did it at least 2 seconds *before* I heard the sound. It's so weird in the first few seconds when I sit there wondering why I am feeling scared/tense.(I am very detached from my body's reactions and emotions. I observe them almost as an outsider at times)

One time pulling up floorboards in an aircraft at work and out of the corner of my eye I saw a coworker come up the ladder onto the plane. She took a winding path since there were floorboards missing. Then I looked at her and there was no one there. I was freaked out because it had seemed very real and I'd seen enough out of the corner of my eye to identify her and note the path she took. Then 10 minutes later she came up the later and walked the same exact path, for real this time. ...I freaked out more.

Once I was playing Yugioh(yes I'm a nerd) with a friend. I won't bore you with the details, but winning the game came down to me being able to guess what kind of cards he had in his hand. With roughly 1 out 3 to 1 out of 4 odds each time I guessed the correct one 12 times in a row and won. It was strange. I have no way to describe it except to say that some cards felt one way and some felt another. I often sense strange energies in areas or in objects. In fact I'm always sensing something from everything, but usually I can't make heads or tails of it. I don't know what all these energies mean. With the cards I felt a very negative feeling coming from some of them. On my first pick I avoided those and I guessed wrong. After that I started picking those and I got 12 in a row. I think maybe that negative feeling came from my opponent thinking "not that one!" in his head. I'm sure I generated a great deal of unhappiness in him when my finger went near a correct card. Perhaps I picked up on that?
It was funny though. He asked how I did it. I said "Do you believe in psychics?". He said no. I said "then I'm just lucky".

The one time that I actually meditated and tried to do something I was able to sense the shape of several random objects. I swear I almost moved one too. I think I could have if I'd kept at it. Thought that was enough for one day though.

All of that stuff is fun, but there's definitely a downside too. Often I feel like I'm being watched by something unseen. At night it can get so bad that I can't sleep. I'll feel sure that there's something else in the room. Certain rooms are more likely than others to generate these feelings. Am I imagining things? or is it possible that there is some kind of ghost?I don't even know if I believe in ghosts. I just know that I feel something. Maybe I am picking up on past or future negative emotions of people? Maybe years ago someone sat in that spot and glared at someone where I was standing and somehow I sense this? I have a cousin who is psychic too. He lacks my enviromental awareness but is absolutely awe inspiring with his future prediction. Sometimes go walking around at night looking for areas that feel weird. When I'm with him everything seems to feel twice as strong. Seriously creepy things happen when we're together. Am I just picking up on his emotions? are his fears multiplying mine and making me imagine things? or are we fueling each other's power? Are our fears somehow drawing something to us? Cause WEIRD SHIT happens when we're together. You feel like someone is right behind you. shadows dance. We heard footsteps no more than 6 feet behind us once when there was no one in sight.

Desperate to understand all this. Want to develop my ability, but not if that means more problems with ghosts or whatever they are. Help?

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