Situation? Not sure??

[Understanding]

Well, first of, I'm not even sure where to put this. I'm just going all out, I guess. Let's first say, I don't think I'm a psychic. At all, do I believe that psychics exist? Most definitley. What I'm really trying to say is, I'd say it was a situation or my mind is wigging out on me. I have an issue with, ghosts? I don't know. Do I? Heh.

Gut instinct tells me, something is there. I don't know though. I try to do research, but I don't even know if actually on this site there are people who either ARE psychics, or wish to be, that's why I stated I'm going all out. I'd hope from the hundred people here, there was at least one? I'm not trying to insult, I'm just frustrated. I can't sleep at night, I'm sick of dealing with whatever the heck it is. I dream of dreams where people are murdered,tortured,mutilated and hurt in horrible ways and I can't do anything. I dream of a dream where people ask for help, and I have no way to help. I've had a dream where I've had pain from, I can't even recall the dream, it's as if my mind blocks it out, I can't remember it. All I recall is I laughed at one point, and the next thing I recall is pain. I had pain in my head and I tried to figure out how to block it, but I couldn't, it hurt so much. I heard laughter in my "head" and I got up from my bed and ran to my light switch. It was at dawn, I don't know if it was a nightmare or if it was real. I've had moments where I'm in my room and I can "feel" something there. I've had one incident where I was in my closet, and something was urging me out of it, but for some reason I thought of a metal wall, and I stated out loud please go away please. I've had moments where my bedroom door opened for no reason, it wasn't a sibling, I check, and I felt something watching me.

I've had more than one incident, the freakiest for me having been being in the house and feeling something and I was terrified. I don't know if it was because I was alone in the house, so I decided to drive to the beach at 9 at night. I left on the carpool light, hanging where the cars are parked in my house, and literally RAN to the driver's door. Backed out, and as I had the car still in reverse and looked behind me to make sure that the neighbor behind me wasn't miraculously popping out of nowhere, I saw something move. Literally move, it wasn't an animal, it was an upright "person/thing" and it moved quite fast but I could feel it..looking almost..I pretty much after that, had my heart beat high up to likely where you could see the pulse in my neck, put the car into drive and gunned it down the road. I mean, I've had a moment, more than once where I pass a place and I get pain as if I have a migraine. It's gone when I move away. I mean, am I losing it or what the heck? I'd hope it's my mind going loco, and it's not always at night. I might have to add, I'm afraid of the dark, I need some form of light. I'm terrified of the dark, and some of these things don't happen at night.

Either way, sorry for the long post, but if I try to search some place..I take it that it's a place where people WISH they were psychic's, or you try to find "psychic reading" crap. Half the time it's a bunch of bull. Even if you could just direct me towards a site or a book, anything, I'd appreciate it. I just want to get sleep back in a way, I have bags under my eyes from lack of sleep, granted though it's getting better. I only go to bed when I'm so exhausted and know the minute I close my eyes I'm gone. I don't always wake up from my dreams, I mean I'm not the victim in them, it's people that I've never met and if I try to remember them..I can't. I can't remember the dreams, not always, seldom do i. Anyway, thanks again, I appreciate it.

Something I forgot to add:

       I've had a dream before, where I dreamed of people that were dead but still in human form. They were in my house, and I felt the need to cook them dinner?? I cooked them fries that had cheddar cheese on it and bugs in a pan...Afterwards they dropped, their head fell onto the plate and all of a sudden I had the urge..get every valuable out of the house. I went into every room, with a big black bag and put things into it. I don't even know what I put into it, but every room I was in, they'd awoken at some point..it's as if, they smelled me, they followed my trace and when I was in my older sisters room, I was near her window and by a drawer..I heard the door opening and I knew it was "them" I made a run for the porch door and just as I was about to go out they or one of them grabbed me, and pulled me in. Then I woke up.

[ShirakOmegaX]

There are several things you can do in this situation all of them your choice. First of all I will address some of the feelings and problems you have to give you some relief. Once again it is your choice.
We are all surrounded by a QRF or as the American military describe it in their documentation of psychokinetic people biofields. Your QRF Quantum reality field is an expression of you (your consciousness) and your link to the quantum fields that make up all matter. Quantum physics has shown all matter is just energy combined into different configurations to give mass. One example of this is demonstrated <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAQB9qda57c" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hAQB9qda57c</a> Now if you accept that you have the ability to affect and change your reality field this will help.
1. Start jogging push yourself strengthen the bond between your body and mind. By doing this you strengthen your QRF.
Reason: An entity can not invade your QRF when you have this strength unless you allow it. You are in effect shielded.
2. Take into yourself no mind altering drugs pot/alcohol
Reason: These provide an avenue of weakness that other entities including human can use to manipulate you.
3. Do sleep do eat.
Reason: Without adequate sleep and nourishment our minds and body are weakened. This provides avenues for attack and manipulation by others.
4. Do not watch gory scary movies while these events are occurring.
Reason Fear is the easiest way for entities including human to control and manipulate people. Taking in these images by choice will give other entities plenty of fresh material to use to manipulate using images.
Example; When we observe this information is recorded in the neurons of our mind as we sleep the mind files and stores this info according to its importance. If you believe as I do that consciousness has the ability to affect energy. It is not a far stretch to think that another entity could add focus to the energy produced by those memory neurons containing bad images from movies invading through a weakened biofield brought about by the other mentioned factors.
5. Take time each day to just be get in touch with true awareness this is your true self. Not the thinking (words) mind but awareness true self in knowledge of true self you will see your invincibility that quality others would have you forget. Know this it is my belief that all have the potential to be great if only we can set our ego/fear based motives aside and connect to our true selves we can understand and in turn triumph over all that would take our freedoms away.
Remember fear is the entrapment of the mind love is truth and understanding. Courage is the ability to see through fear and say I reject your reality for mine is the one that I will put my faith in. I hope this has helped.

[Understanding]

I'm kind of confused on what you're implying. I mean, I understand there is energy all around us. Like, our body it's a flow of energy it's one of the reasons accupuncture does well, because it balances the energy out in which there is a break in, if you will.

I'm not understanding how the energy is dealing with my nightmares and issues I have with the feelings I get, and the pain I get at times? I'm kind of lost on that. I've tried to meditate, like, I think a light and it flowing through my body. It does relax, but if I try to think of my dreams or nightmares or try to think of what I'm feeling at the moment, it hurts. Like a throb type of hurt, and that just escalates..but i dont really get where the energy deals with that?

[ShirakOmegaX]

Where intention flows energy gos, so if the entity fucuses its attention on that material you have taken on by watching scary movies then encoding it to memory neurons they need only focus on  those neurons to activate them in turn causing the nightmare however mind body excercise and all the advise I have provided will help shield.

[Understanding]

Say this so called entity existed, why is it..it would focus on me? Why is it outside of home to same feeling? Even in the car, I mean, I've felt something in the car and felt the need to touch the back of the car to see if something was there.

[Tortue]

In addition to SkOX advices. I would also book a session with Carol Hathor, she is good at clean up crap inside people... aura, past lives, entities etc....
Her website is at http://www.soulwisdom.net/
I had two sessions with her and it helped me greatly, I have one more session booked with her in two weeks. I still have some junks .....

 She has been removing crap out of me, if you go the self-healing route you are in for years.. working with her made me save months and probably years of figure out why certains crappy things were happening in my life.

Send her an email with your issues, she will reply from there you can decide if this is appropriate for you to work with her.